Tidbits

Do You Know?

1) though i am publicly blogging i don't want my friends & those who personally know me to read my blog. i made some precautionay measures to prevent this from happening. i did not give my blogsite or blog name to them. i also 'google searched' my blog & i 'successfully'did not found it. so i was convinced that i could still be anonymous. i also stop mentioning what i'm blogging for the day so they won't be curious about it (sometimes, i'm getting paranoid akala ko yung sinasabi ng friend ko related sa mga blog ko..hehe). i should have never mentioned about my blogging to my friends, but i can't blame myself i was so excited & happy. I wanted to share these to my friends.

last night, i was about to start to blog when AB (a cousin & housemate) told me that she's currently reading a blog titled "The Secret Keeper". i felt cold, i knew instantly that it was my blog she was reading. i have a vivid memory on all my blog titles. she told me she found the site on her laptop. (it was a carelessness on my part, i have typed my URL. i forgot that it could be access through internet history). she told me she never knew it was my blog. it turned out she's following it whenever she has time. haha. we were both laughing. she had discovered my elusive blog. to my satisfaction, she allowed me to delete the internet history on her laptop. hehe. i told her 'ayokong mawalan o masira ang aking bagong career'. i asked her 'wag na nia hanapin ito'. naawa cguro sa akin, she promised nde na..hehe...kaya tuloy ang blogging. :-) thanks ate AB!

of course, i would like to know what's her feedback/comment about my blog since she had read it. she told me, 'MAGANDA' daw especially stories about... mentioning several titles & contents. The reason why she followed it. Haha. Natuwa naman ako sympre. :-)

2) i have a closed friend who met her inspiration via on-line chatting. they decided to meet (in personal) after one month of knowing each other on-line. now, they are playing sweet music together. i'm really happy for my friend because i can tell she's happy and inspired.

this friend of mine is really 'tahimik', but love could really make the world go round. she's now the one talking and i was the one listening. she talks about him over & over again. sometimes, out of nowhere she would mentioned things about him. OMG! my friend is in love!

in one of our recent 'bonding moments', she seriously asked my opinion about it. i told her to take it slowly. savour this good moment. let herself experience the joy of being in love. kilalanin muna niya nang mabuti ito. i added this is a critical stage, she must open her eyes widely & let her heart & mind agree on whatever she sees. i trust her judgement. :-)

3) someone who's really very close to me and i love so much might visit me here in Dubai this Dec. sana matuloy. :-)

Matutuloy Ba Ang Pasko?

Malapit na ang pasko. Pag nasa ibayong dagat ka at malayo sa pamilya, sigurado feeling 'homesick' ka na naman. Naiisip mo, ang saya saya na sa Pinas sa panahong ito. Samantalang ikaw, eto ka pa rin pilit na kinakapa ang sarili para maramdaman ang diwa at saya ng Pasko kahit papaano.

Huwag malungkot. Don't fret, nde ka nag-iisa. Madami tayo actually. Lahat tayo gusto makasama ang ating pamilya sa Pinas sa araw ng Pasko. Pero ganyan talaga ang buhay, kailangan kung minsan magsakripisyo.

Share ko itong kantang ito. Gumagaan ang pakiramdam ko pag naririnig at kinakanta ko ito. Naniniwala akong sapat na SIYA ang kasama natin para maging masaya tayo.

Tuloy na Tuloy Pa Rin Ang Pasko
by Apo Hiking Society

Ngunit kahit na anong mangyari
Ang pag-ibig sana'y maghari
sapat nang si Hesus ang kasama mo
Tuloy na tuloy pa rin ang pasko

Melason Fever

Grabeh, nakakakilig talaga si Jayson and Melai of PBB. Lahat kami dito sa haws kinikilig sa mga 'moments' nilang dalawa. Tomorrow, extended pa ang kilig na ito sa ofis namin. Maka-Melason din kami dun (lalu na kaming dalawa ni RS). For sure, matatagalan na naman kami sa canteen for our lunch break dahil sa kwentuhan. :-)

Katatapos lang namin manood ngayon sa TFC kaya nakangiti pa ako habang sinusulat ko ito. Naalala ko pa ang kakulitan ni Jayson kay Melai and vice versa. Pero sobra ang kilig kagabi dahil ipinalabas na ang pag-akyat ng ligaw ni Jayson kay Melai. Ang cute ni Jayson...(sigh) :-)

At first parang duda pa kami kay Jayson sa intensyon niya kay Melai pero ngayon grabeh, naniniwala na kami sa kanya. Ramdam namin ang kanyang sinseridad. Sobrang nakakakilig talaga sila. Dinaig pa ang mga romantic movies. Ang cute nilang dalawa together. Ang sweet ni Jason....haaaayyy.. :-)

Salamat sa youtube para sa video nilang ito:

Panaginip

Ayon sa Wikipedia, ang Panaginip ay ang pansariling karanasan ng mga guni-guning imahen, tunog/tinig, pag-iisip o pakiramdam habang tulog, kadalasang di kusa.





Binasa ko ang lahat na nakasaad dito, pero wala akong nakita or walang binanggit na panaginip habang gising. :-) Tungkol kasi dito ang gusto kong sulatin ngayon. Madalas kasing mangyari sa akin ito lalu na pag ako ay nag-iisa.



Dahil sa nalalapit na ang pasko, napapadalas ang aking mga panaginip. Nasa Pinas na daw ako. Kumpleto daw kaming lahat ng aming pamilya. Masayang-masaya daw ako kasi lumaki na din ang pamilya namin. Tatlo lang kasi kaming magkakapatid. Ang dalawa kong kapatid ay pareho nang may asawa ngayon. Meron na din akong tatlong cute na pamangkin. Naghahabulan at naglalaro ang mga pamangkin ko sa aming bakuran. Samantalang kaming mga grown-ups (kasama ang aming nanay sympre) nasa balkonahe kami nagkukuwentuhan habang pinapanood ang mga bata. Inaantay din namin ang pagdaan ng prusisyon. Malapit lang ang bahay ng kuya ko pero dahil pasko buong pamilya niya sa amin daw matutulog ngayon. Yun ay kung matutulog kami kasi ang dami naming nakahandang activities para sa noche buena. Sobrang miss na miss na din kasi namin ang isa't isa.


Napagmasdan kong mabuti ang aking nanay habang nakaupo siya. Meron na siyang mapuputing buhok ngayon, simbolo iyon ng kanyang pagsisikap upang mapalaki kaming magkakapatid ng maayos. Kinaya niyang maging malakas at matapang para sa amin sa kabila ng kahirapan ng buhay. Maaga kaming naulila sa ama. Ang aming nanay ang mag-isang nagtaguyod at nagdisiplina sa aming magkakapatid. Siya ang pinagkukunan namin ng lakas. Sa kanyang mga mata ay nakikita ko ang kanyang kasiyahan. Naisip ko, siguro very proud siya sa aming mga anak niya kasi lahat kami magkakasundo at puro mababait na anak. (naniniwala talaga ako na mababait ang aking mga kapatid, sympre kasama pati ako.lol.)

Tuwang-tuwa ang mga pamangkin ko nang dumaan ang prusisyon sa tapat ng bahay namin. Lumiwanag ang buong paligid dahil sa sinindihan nina kuya ang mga 'fountain'. Tangan tangan naman namin ang mga lusis. Yung umiilaw lang, takot kasi ako sa paputok.

Pagkatapos ng prusisyon, noche buena na! Hmmmm..ang dami naming hinanda ni nanay kasama ng aking mga hipag. Kung dati rati taga-kain lang ako, ngayon nakikialam na ako sa kusina. Matured na daw kasi ako. At tsaka interesado na kasi akong malaman ngayon ang mga secret recipes ng aking mahal na ina. Merong lechon (yung ulo lang ng baboy), embutido, chicken roll, cordon blue, barbecue, baked macaroni, fruit salad, sympre hindi mawawala ang nakaugaliang quezo de bola at ang home-made kalamay (kakanin) at marami pang iba. Pareho kami ng nanay ko na ayaw na ayaw yung nasasayang ang pagkain. Sa kanya ko pala minana yun. Teka lang, nde naman namin kailangan ubusin lahat kasi kinabukasan ng gabi pupunta kaming lahat sa lola ko, nanay ng nanay ko. Yearly, doon ginagawa ang family reunion. Grabeh, tiyak na masaya din yun. To date, nde ko na alam kung ilan na kaming miyembro ng pamilya sa side ng mother. Meron na ngang apo sa talampakan ang lola ko. Besides, 14 na magkakapatid sila nanay at take note lahat sila sa ay naka-base sa isang barangay lang. Naalala ko tuloy yung Christmas ko (2004) before ako magpunta ng Dubai, ako ang naatasang maging organizer ng aming reunion. Isa sa pinakamasayang reunion daw namin sabi ng mga tita ko. Ginawa kasi naming interactive ang mga games namin. Tapos meron pa akong mga tito at tita na likas na komedyante kaya masaya talaga.

Habang kumakain kami, tuloy ang kwentuhan sa aming buhay-buhay. Nagsalita ang aking nanay na masaya daw siya dahil kumpleto kaming mag-anak.. Nagpapasalamat siya sa Maykapal at hindi niya kami pinababayaan. Pero meron pa daw siyang isang hiling sa Diyos, yun ay makapag-asawa na din ako at sana daw yung mabait din. Hala, sabi ko na nga ba at isisingit na naman ni nanay yun. Tawanan lahat..

Haaay, mis na mis ko na talaga ang aking pamilya sa Pinas. Sa darating na Pasko, 5 christmases ko na silang nde nakakasama. Ngayon pa lang hinahanda ko na ang sarili ko. Sigurado, dadalawin na naman ako ng 'christmas blues'. Pinapakalma ko na lang ang sarili ko, di bale next year sa bakasyon ko (plan date is Aug), request ako sa nanay ko kung pwedi mag-noche buena na kami kahit nde pa Pasko. :-)

Be Aware: Hepatitis B in the UAE

"Hepatitis B is a disease caused by hepatitis B virus (HBV) which infects the liver of hominoidae, including humans, and causes an inflammation called hepatitis. The acute illness causes liver inflammation, vomiting, jaundice and—rarely—death. Chronic hepatitis B may eventually cause liver cirrhosis and liver cancer—a fatal disease with very poor response to current chemotherapy. The infection is preventable by vaccination. Transmission of hepatitis B virus results from exposure to infectious blood or body fluids containing blood.

-from Wikipedia




I have never been afraid of this disease until I heard the bad news from a friend here in Dubai. :-( The health authority detected that he is infected by Hepa B. And according to the new UAE Law on 1st of July 2008, this is one of the deportable diseases ( others are HIV, TB, Hepa C & Syphilis). A medical test is required and performed before issuance of any residence visa (new/renewal). My friend transferred to another company thus, had his medical test for visa requirement. He was not aware that he had this disease. He's practicing a clean & healthy living. He exercises everyday. He constantly plays tennis. He regularly visit his doctors but his focus is more on his high blood and cholesterol level since these are the most common illness of his age. He's in his late forties.

What's saddening me is that he's been working here for more than 10 years. He was able to get his family from the Philippines and resides here. His children are also studying here. He had managed to settle his family here all this time. And one disease could & will change his life drastically. He's under the UAE immigration watchlist. He's supposed to be deported immediately but since UAE govt had 10-day holidays after the result of his medical, his deportation was moved to 1st working day after the holiday which is this coming Sunday. A blessing in disguise he told me for he had still time to say goodbye to his family & friends.


I am still in state of shock. He's like a father to me. I have a high regard of this man. Beside him being my previous boss, he's also my advisor in my career and life in general. He's an active preacher in a Christian organization while I am full pledge Roman Catholic. But this was never an issue to us. We respect each other's faith.

I strongly believe that he can surpass this trial in life. I pray that he & his family would be given continued strength in facing this challenge. As questioned by the priest today in the homily, "Is there anything that i can do?" I would answer, Yes. That is to pray and to make my friends & family aware of this disease.

Moving Forward

Today, Dec 2 is UAE National Day thus i'm on a holiday again. But more than this, I'm singing a happy tune because I FINALLY learned to let him go. :-)

After so much self-contemplation, I had come into terms with the fact that we could never be together forever. We're not just meant for each other. There are good things that really never last. I love you with all my heart and soul. In you, i always feel connected with the world. You made me closer to my family and friends. Just knowing that you are with me, i feel safe. You were always there for me. Thank you for everything. I will forever treasure our memories together.

My life will never be the same without you for sure. But i need to be strong. I believe this is the best thing that I could ever give to you- your FREEDOM.


N.B.
You might want to read my earlier post about him on 16 Oct 2009 entitled The Art of Letting Go.

Two Months After...

Today is my 2nd monthsary in blogosphere! Yippee! Happy Monthsary to me! :-) hehe.

I am happy that I got the courage to start blogging. I never thought i can ever do it but i did. :-) I really considered it as my personal achievement. However, i'm not super proud (just proud lang.hehe) with the content of my blog. They are mostly ( if not all) about my own thoughts & personal experiences. I know I can write more than these. Meron pa akong ibubuga. Hehe.

I am challenging myself now. I want to see a different 'me' in the coming days. I'm hoping to write more serious topics like maybe politics, economics, business etc (haha..sobrang serious yata talaga ang mangyayari). My future topics will not be limited to myself, friends and families. I will also try to blog more of those topics in general interests.

From now on, I will focus on whatever I will be blogging. I will make time to proofread it. What i'm doing right now is like i'm just writing on a diary. I just post whatever's on my mind. There is no checking nor editing.

I expect myself to be busy this month, not with the coming holidays but busy thinking very hard and profusely what will i going to post. Haha. I'm in trouble. :-)