My First Month-End Post! :-)

Current State of Mind: self-fulfilled, happy :-)
Reasons: i'll be posting my last blog entry for this month of Oct! (my 31st entry; one blog per day) Whoaah! I did it! Yippee!!!! and.....

Since Oct 28 (posting date of my 3oth entry), i've been thinking of what to post for my 31st entry. I got a two-day allowance for I finished ahead of days, i wanted my month-end post to be published same day. I am posting my blogs real-time. I directly write to my blogspot account. Though I was advised by a friend that it's better to write them first in Word file for easy editing. Maybe, I'll try that next time.

I was thinking my month-end post should be something special and memorable. Last night, JC and I went to our favorite get-away place in Al Ghurair City and ate our favorite 'cheesecake!'..hmmm, yummy! I told her, i should have brought a camera. Both of us love cheesecakes! We had probably eaten all the available cheesecakes in Dubai! Be it strawberry, blueberry, raspberry, chocolate, fruity or just plain, we won't miss a chance.

Until this morning I am still not decided what to blog. I opened the laptop.(opppps, i remember i will return this laptop today to a renewed and now so-kind-and-so-generous friend of mine. many many thanks to this person! its with me for more than 2 weeks now, i don't want to abuse the kindness of anyone). I logged-in at my blogspot account. Still nothing in my mind. I read my previous entries and felt so proud to myself. What I have read are all those things that were kept to my heart for long time! In my own opinion, I have successfully written them and be able to share them in one way or another. Funny for I really feel proud of my blog! :-). I am thinking i can now maybe bloghop to other blogs with confidence. lol. Honestly, beside the feeling of admiration to some of my fave blogs, there's this little feeling of intimidation and maybe insecurity to them. They're writings are just too great and too good as compared to mine. They are a born-writers! I would really be super happy and fulfilled as a blogger if one day they would be on my blogroll. :-)

While reading my previous entries, this particular blogpost Aaminin Ko Na posted on 14 Oct 2009 has caught my attention. I read it over and over again with a happy feeling thinking if i'm not into blogging i could probably not tell anyone about this phase in my life.

As my blogtitle suggests, this is about my admission of shortcomings and a not-so-good-side-attitude of mine. I have taken the liberty to let this out and posted it publicly with an intention to keep it anonymous to the concerned persons.

But this morning, i just felt i needed to share this one to JC for the admission is really addressed to her. Remember, i'd wanted to keep my anonymity to my friends so I copied and pasted the mentioned blogpost to Word file and have it read by JC. :-)

Before she read it, i'd started to joke to keep her comfortable. But she knew it immediately (from the blog title) what was it all about- the most avoided topic. I gave her time to read it. I kept some little distance. And when I returned, I find her crying and smiling at the same time. She told me it's like 'natanggal yung tinik niya sa dibdib'. I can't help but cry also for having to give that 'tinik sa dibdib' to my friend. She added, now she feels i'm giving her away. It's not really like that i told her though i strongly feel she will really tie the knot soon as in very very soon. I assured her, this time she has my blessings for real (not only in words). :-)

To My Friend JC,

Thank you so much for being my good, better and best friend for all these times. You are one in a million! I am really so blessed to have you in my life. I love you so much!

I can now wholeheartedly imagine to be a part of your wedding entourage! I really wish you the best in life and that's including me (whether you like it or not) :-)

Sincerely yours,

KP

Where Have I Been Yesterday?

Since I wanted my holidays to be a little more productive, I decided to update some of my legal requirements/documents as an OFW.

PASSPORT RENEWAL
If your passport happens to be expiring within six months just like in my case, this is the right time for you to renew it. My passport will expire on 19 April 2010. Please bear in mind the importance of having a valid passports at all times. It is a requirement in all countries that passports must be valid for more than six months before they can allow you entry.

All countries are now issuing Machine Readable Passport in congruent to the new guidelines of International Civil Aviation Organization (ICAO) requiring all countries to issue Machine Readable Passports by 01 April 2010.

There was a message proliferated in the internet before that those having old green passports should renew/change to Machine Readable Passport (MDP) before 01 April 2010 based on this ICAO guideline. Good news to those who still have their old green passports for this is not true as cleared by our embassy.

The Philippine Embassy has issued an official statement regarding the wrong presumption/interpretation of the new ICAO guideline (as posted in the Bulletin Board of the Consulate Office in Dubai). In the statement, it was reiterated and confirmed that all the old green passports will still be valid and acceptable until their expiry dates.

@ Beirut St. Al Ghusais, Dubai UAE
i'm not lost here for this is my 3rd time in the consulate
(1st- a witness to civil wedding of a friend;
2nd-registered in absentee voting for 2010 national election)

the buillding of Philippine Consulate
you will not be lost as long as you open your eyes;
our national flag will lead you to it.

The Seal of Phil Consulate in Dubai @ the entrance

oopps, i was wrong timing. it was exactly 12pm when I arrived,

they're on lunch break. consulate office is open

from 8am to 5pm from Sunday to Thursday.

i have to wait for one hour. while waiting, i took
pics of my renewal application forms :-). i'd like to thank
the staff of our consulate for renewal processing is actually fast & in order,
it took only an hour or less. their staff are friendly and accomodating too!
(unlike the usual exasperating one whole day processing of any govt agencies in the Phils)

SSS Payment Contribution as an OFW
I was able to update my SSS contribution too! I have been in default since Nov 2005 (when I resigned to my company in the Phils and decided to go here in Dubai). Yesterday, I went to a Al Ghurair Exchange in Reef Mall (partner of SSS) to ask something about it. Though if you asked me what is the importance of updating SSS, i only have wild guesses. If ever I go back to Phils, I can be eligible for a loan?!! or as its name suggests, it will be like my social security. On a more higher lever, i can also somehow help our government funds their projects. :-). I think I need to do a further homework regarding this. Meantime, i'd considered this as my mission accomplished! At least I took the first step. :-)

inside Reef Mall
Did you see the security guard? He actually called my
attention telling me that pics are not allowed inside the mall,
only family pictures accdg to him. I told him I am alone, and asked
if he could he take my pictures instead. He laughed at me thinking
I was just joking. Of course, I was so serious. :-)


mission accomplished :-)

I'm on Holidays!!!

Ang bilis ng oras! Last day na ng one-week leave ko ngayon. Sa Sunday, papasok na ako. Eto ang kagandahan ng nagta-trabaho sa abroad. Pweding-pwede mong gamitin ang annual leave mo na 30 days. Naisip ko sa Pilipinas, hinding-hindi ko ito magagawa. Bukod sa laging overtime kami, isang mortal sin ang mag-take ng leave. Magi-guilty ka talaga pag ginawa mo yun.

Sa mahigit na tatlong taon kong pagta-trabaho ko sa isang kumpanya ng eroplano sa Pinas, mabibilang ang leave ko. Eto lang yung mga pagkakataon na kelangan ko talagang mag-leave dahil may nakasalalay na buhay. lol! In fairness to my previous company, convertible to cash naman ang mga leave namin. Pero grabeh, matuto ka talagang maging workaholic sa aming work lifestyle dun.

Buti na lang naging kaibigan ko sina JC, ID at PA dun. Tawag sa amin sa ofis F4, mahilig kaming mag-unwind pag feeling burn-out na kami sa work. Sila napuntahan lahat halos ng mga pasyalan sa buong Pinas, ako kasi si laging nagmamadali sa pag-uwi sa aming probinsiya kaya unti lang ang aking nasamahan. Sinabihan lang ako na hindi naman mawawala ang aming probinsya at mababalikan ko naman ulit ito. Ewan ko ba, parang feeling ko dati MTB (meant-to-be) kami ng aming probinsya at para dun lang talaga ako! hehe.. Nag-sink in sa akin ang advice nila. Simula noon nagustuhan ko na ding ang magpunta sa ibat-ibang lugar. Hindi yung gusto ko lang sa baryo lang namin ako mag-stay. Meron isang matanda noon sa baryo namin at sinabihan ako 'ikaw, you'll go into places..malayo ang mararating mo.'

Nagkatotoo ang kanyang sinabi. Nakarating ako sa Ilocos, Vigan, Banaue, Baguio, Manaoag, Hundred Islands, Subic, Bataan, Fontana, Eight Waves, Laguna, Batangas, Quezon, Bicol. Dahil may libre kaming airfare sa aming kumpanya noon, nakapasyal kaming F4 sa Cebu, Palawan, Roxas City at Boracay. Bumalik pa ako sa Boracay kasama ang nanay ko at isang tita bago ako nagpunta ng Dubai.

Takot ako sa dagat dahil hindi ako marunong lumangoy pero nung makarating ako ng Boracay. Grabeh, as in makakalimutan mo ang takot mo dahil sa sobrang ganda nito. You'll end up appreciating the beauty of it. Kaya highly recommended ko talaga ang Boracay sa mga kagaya kong takot sa dagat. Magandang therapy ito.

Nawala na ngang tuluyan ang takot ko, last May 2009 nagbakasyon kami ulit ng F4 (tatlo kaming nasa Dubai) sa Pinas, nagpunta naman kami sa Caramoan Island at sa Camsur. Nag-try kaming mag-wake boarding! Palakasan lang kami ng loob..hehe. Dumaan din kami sa Mayon Volcano. Ipinagpapatuloy lang namin ang aming sinimulan. :-)

Madami pa akong gustong puntahang lugar ngayon. Sa Pinas, next stop ko is Bohol naman (meron na akong ka-plano dito). Then going international na ako pagkatapos, plano kong ipasyal ang aking mahal na ina sa Hongkong sa darating kong bakasyon next year. Sana matuloy kami! (nanghihinayang kasi ang nanay ko sa gagastusin). Gusto ko ding makapasyal sa Singapore, Malaysia, China at Thailand. Dito sa Middle East, ipinapangako kong makakarating ako sa Egypt balang-araw! Wala pa sa plano kong makarating sa Europe! Nagtanong ako sa ofismeyt kong galing dun. Nagastos lang naman niya is mga AED40,000 or almost 5ooK sa pesos! Mahaba-habang pag-iipon ito!

Hala, i got carried away. Reality check, nandito pa din ako ngayon sa kwarto namin sa Dubai. Mag-isa dahil lahat nasa kani-kanilang trabaho. Kasalukuyang nasa harap ng laptop, nagsusulat at ini-enjoy ang nalalabing oras ng aking leave. :-)

The Calling

After I graduated from college, i took my review classes for the Board Exam at a Review School near UST. It was during this time that I became really close with God. I practically think of Him every minute and every second of the day wherever I am. I do not fail to attend the weekly masses. I also religiously attend a novena every Thursday at UST church.

It was also during this time when I felt I had this calling to serve Him fully. There was this voice encouraging me to become one of His servants as Sister. I think and pray about it. I seek His guidance. I did not actually come to a point of filing an application for i know He knows what are my desires at the time. I'd wanted to help my family in any way I can esp. in financial matter.

My barkada and friends were all left in astonishment when they learned about this story of mine. Maybe, they cannot just imagine me as being silent and tame. ( i was the leader of all 'loudness' in our barkada then). As for me, i continued to pray to Him to lead me wherever He wants me to be.

It turned out, He wants me to be here in Dubai. :-)

This song captures the current desire of my heart:

LORD I OFFER MY LIFE
Lord I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord i offer you my life

St. Mary's Church Dubai, UAE

inside St. Mary's Church

Thinking of My Kuya

My Kuya finally visited me here in Dubai! (Dubai is just a connecting flight to his destination). It was just a short visit though, for it was only for 2 days. We expected it to be longer. I'd planned to show him the beauty of Dubai and be his tour guide. I even took a one-week leave from office so we can tour Dubai together.
I have been counting the days for his coming. I diverted my attention to other things just to suppress my excitement. I don't want to be super excited over it. I was afraid it might not push thru or something unexpected might happen. A negative thinker, i know.
I was the one who arranged his visit visa package in Dubai. I was always keeping in touch with the agency & gave my kuya updates from time to time. I also asked my housemates if my kuya can stay with us. They told me they got no problem with that. Thanks housemates for a warm welcome to my Kuya!


Oct 24, 2009 Sat (Before his arrival)
I went to St. Mary's Church then I proceeded to Deira City Centre. I also went to Al Ghurair City Centre after that. I seldom shop things for me but since this is not an ordinary day, I decided to buy myself shoes. I'd wanted to kill time, I'd asked a friend who lives near the area to join me. We went to a carnival-like place just in front of Al Ghurair. I brought a digicam with me so expect some photoshoots. lol. (ang lakas ng trip!)

@carnival near Al Ghurair City

i did not omit the 'buy myself shoes' since evidence

is visible in the photo. :-)

That's Al Ghurair City in the background.


my kuya's 30,000 feet above the ground,
may he always be safe and sound.

waiting for a star to fall.

al rigga st. dubai, uae

photo taken at approx. 10 pm in the evening

(we headed home after this pic)

Oct 25, 2009 Sun (Arrival Date)

My Kuya's arrival time is 5:00 am in the morning. Since everyone's will be working this day, i'll be going to the airport alone. It's all okay with me. I find it more convenient and easier in Dubai to pick up someone from the airport. I could probably not do it (alone) in the Phils. I don't want to bug any of my friends who has a car for this so I just planned of getting a taxi. Taxis are everywhere at this time of the day. I was still awake at 3:00 am in the morning watching movie (The Taking of Pelham 123). I was waiting for the time to come but then without knowing it, i fell asleep. My friend JC knowing that my kuya is arriving on that day, just woke me up but at 6:00 am! I got up and hurriedly rushed to the airport. I ran as fast as I can to get a taxi. Oh my, it was a disaster. I hate being late! My Kuya saw me immediately at the Arrival Area. He's smiling upon seeing me. I'm safe. hehe.

Since he came from the Phils, he brought a lots of 'pasalubongs' from my family & friends. I was so touched by all these pasalubongs. Thanks so much!

my mother >>> one slacks, two blouses, my favorite laing ( 'hito' as filling), binagoongan, daing na tilapya, atchara, native chokolate...hmmm..yummy! salamat ma! :-)

my tita M >>> a big box of chicharon, the best in our town! sarapp!! thanks Tita M!

my cousin CS>>> bunch of dried fish..i'd never expected that this cousin of mine will ever remember me here, much more to send me something. He's my super tough cousin., currently a pnp chief of police in a town in Bataan. Thanks, CS! Babawi ako sa bakasyon ko!

my friend AP>>> thanks AP for the delicious longganisa ala hamonado. i was speechless, naalala mo ako. regards sa mga barkada natin.

But the the best pasalubong I had in Dubai is my Kuya! We had our bonding time together after such a long long time. He's only here for two days so my planned 'Tour Dubai' did not transpired. He's on a jet lag on the first day then he's leaving on the second day. But we were able to do a lot of things together. We went on-line and chatted with our mother back in the Phils. I saw my mom getting teary-eyed upon seeing me & my brother under one roof here in abroad. I'm sure, those were tears of joy. We went to Al Maya's Supermarket in Reef Mall. My Kuya is an adventurous one when it comes to food. He likes to try everything unfamiliar. He tried 'mutton' and fresh dates. He cooked the mutton himself. Surprisingly, we are not fighting over who's gonna wash the dishes because I am a changed person now. :-). I'd do everything for my Kuya. Proof is I cooked our food and washed our dishes wholeheartedly, without complaining. :-) (during our younger years, i always complain to my parents for these tasks are all mine; my kuya & youngest brother are responsible for the tasks outside the house my parents told me)

I played tour guide to my Kuya. We strolled to a nearby mall- Al Ghurair City. We experienced Dubai at Night. We sat outside a coffee shop observing different people in Dubai. We talked almost about everything and anything. We reminisced. We took some pics. (I've been meaning to post some of our pics together but there are no back pics!)

Oct 26, 2009 Mon (Departure Date)

It's really hard to say goodbye. Though i know and i am well aware that his visit is for a short time only, i can't help but to feel again the loneliness i've felt (when i left home for the first time). I will miss him so much. To you Kuya, take care always and i love you so much!

Blogging A Friend Blogger

I never knew this can be very difficult to me - that is to blog about this person.

I'd wanted to blog this friend of mine eversince I started blogging. He is the only blogger I personally know. He is somehow responsible why I finally went to public blogging despite so much hesitations. He is also the first person to know about my blogsite for he had helped me set-up my blog lay-out.

He definitely has a right to brag about his blog for he's a recognized blogger being a nominee to several Blog Awards. He's very committed to his blog. Blogging became a part of his life. But because of a pressing situation, he decided to temporarily stop blogging. While it is during this time that I'd started mine.

LOOKING BACK

I met this person in my 2nd company here in Dubai. I started in the company just a week ahead of him. I had a difficulty then to gel with my filipino officemates for they're already close with each other when I got in. I don't feel like there's a place for me to the group. Being both the newest, i felt like we're on the same boat.

If I remember it right, our friendship started with just a small conversation while walking home after office. Followed by countless exchange of opinions and ideas wherever we maybe. I was too happy for I found a new friend in him. I had always a good laugh when I'm with him. I find him so amusing.

Though I won't deny that there were also those days he had made me cry, knowingly and unknowingly (i can see my friends smiling to this statement). There was also a time, i'd thought of giving up on him, i felt like he's too much for me to handle. Glad, I didn't.

If you don't know him that much, you'll think he's not nice for there is an arrogance in his personality. He is often misunderstood. He keeps everything to himself. Even if he seems to have a problem bigger than we could ever imagine, he won't tell anyone.

I care so much about this person. Hope he knows that. He's probably the first person I'd given my full attention and affection here in Dubai (except for my original friends with me from Phils). I wish him only good things in life. I pray that he will soon find true happiness and peace. He's deserving of it.

PRESENT

As I think of it right now, I've missed a lot of opportunities because of our friendship. I'd somehow lost interest in meeting other people. My lovelife had been sacrificed. lol. But seriously, I really thank God, we're still friends after all this time.

Ooops, don't over-react with this, i am not blaming you. It just meant I enjoyed too much your company that I thought i was not missing anything. Besides, i trusted you enough. I know you will not think of me as less of a woman just because i am often seen in public with you.

I know sometimes i get so irritating, sorry for that. But sometimes, you're twice as much! :-) I just hope that despite all the troubles and problems we are facing, we will be able to maintain and be committed to this friendship.

Note: The author wishes that this particular blogpost would make her friend happy and smile once more. No violent reaction please. :-)

Going Gaga over Little Manhattan!

I've seen 'Little Manhattan' for countless times now. I just can't get enough of it. It doesn't fail to entertain me and to bring me into the other side of this world. I find myself smiling and laughing at each scene. It's just a simple puppy love story of two kids yet adults would definitely relate and learn from it. This is not the usual romantic comedy. Hats off to the creators of this film(directed and written by husband and wife Mark Levin and Jennifer Flackett)!

While Gabe (Josh Hutcherson) and his father have a master plan to launch his Tiger Woods-like career as a place-kicker, he decides to begin taking Karate lessons. He takes the course because he is afraid that a kid in his school will beat him up. There he meets Rosemary Telesco, a girl he's known since kindergarten. But after being partnered with her for sparring, he suddenly notices her as a girl, not another face. To Gabe's elation, they begin spending time together and he is completely enamored with not only her, but her life. She lives with her loving upper-class parents on the edge of Central Park. Rosemary's parents take her and Gabe to hear a jazz pianist at The Carlyle, where the young twosome finally hold hands. The Telescos' life is in contrast to Gabe's; he lives with his soon-to-be-divorcing parents, who have declared an awkward truce while waiting for their divorce to be finalized.
As their relationship progresses, Gabe begins to question what is happening to him and why he is falling in love with Rosemary. When things seem to be going perfectly, Gabe's world is suddenly turned upside down. He discovers that Rosemary is soon leaving for camp for six weeks and won't be back until summer's end. And since she has moved up a belt in their karate class, she is given a new partner, a handsome and more athletic boy named Tim Staples, whom Gabe likens to Ashton Kutcher. With their remaining time running out, Gabe tries to move closer to Rosemary but only drives her away. In a desperate move to win Rosemary back, Gabe tests for his yellow belt, but fractures his hand in a painful (and failed) attempt to break a board.
Being crushed with what love really is, he learns from his father that the parents' marriage fell apart because of things left unsaid. Realizing he is out of time, Gabe goes to find Rosemary. He interrupts her during the wedding reception she is attending and declares his love. Taken aback, Rosemary replies she doesn't think she is mature enough to be ready for love, but is really happy to see Gabe. She asks for a dance and Gabe agrees. As they dance, Gabe muses that he and Rosemary were on different paths - "like two ships that passed in Sheep Meadow."
He returns home to find his parents laughing over their honeymoon experiences. Gabe is pleased and surprised when his father says he "cleared out some old stuff" and his parents appear to have reconciled. They happily go out for dinner, and as the movie ends, Gabe, narrating, summarizes what Rosemary meant to him: "...I'm never gonna get another first love. That one is always gonna be her."

Source: Wikipedia

Napapakanta Talaga Ako Part 2

Sabi ko nga kanina, mahilig ako sa mga kanta. Madalas din nakaka-relate ako sa mga ito. Kung minsan nga feeling ko parang ginawa para sa akin ang mga kanta. Yikes! FEELING..hehe...

Heto ang ilan sa mga kantang tunay namang tumatak sa akin:

PAG FEELING INSPIRED

your love is like the sun

that lights up my whole world

i feel the warmth inside

-alamid

how did you know

i needed someone like you in my life

that there's an empty space in my heart

you came at the right time in my life

-gary v

you're my sunshine after the rain

you're the cure against my fear and my pain

coz i'm losing my mind when you're not around

it's all it's all because of you

-98 degrees

PAG FEELING BROKEN-HEARTED

now here it comes, the hardest part of all

unchain my heart that's holding on

how do i start to live my life alone

guess i'm just learning, learning the art of letting go

-mikaela

what do you get when you fall in love?

you only get lies, pain and sorrow

so, for at least until tomorrow

i'll never fall in love again

-carpenters

PAG FEELING HOMESICK

another aeroplane

another sunny place

i'm lucky i know

but i wanna go home

i've got to go home

-michael buble

well, i'm going home, back to the place where i belong

and where your love has always been enough for me

i'm not running from, no, i think you got me all wrong

i don't regret this life i chose for me

but these places and these faces are getting old

so, i'm going home, well i'm going home

-chris daughtry

PAG KINIKILIG

it's not the pale moon that excites me

that thrills and delights me

oh no, it's not the nearness of you

-norah jones

this could have been just another day

but instead we're standing here

no need for words it's all been said

in the way you hold me near

-mymp

someday, when i'm awfully low

when the world is cold

i will feel a glow just thinking of you

and the way you look tonight

-frank sinatra

At madami pang iba. Hindi pa kasama dyan ang mga kanta ng paborito kong banda sa pinas (eraserheads, parokya ni edgar, rivermaya etc). Nadyan pa ang mga boy bands na talagang kinabaliwan namin ng mga barkada ko nung kabataan namin (backstreeboys, boyzone, westlife, 98 degrees etc).

Okay na muna itong kanta kong ito. Hanggang sa muli kong pagkanta! Salamat sa pakikinig. :-)

Napapakanta Ako

PASAKALYE:

Bukod sa pagbabasa at panonood ng pelikula, mahilig din akong makinig sa mga kanta. Hindi kagandahan ang boses ko pero kumakanta ako pag sa oras ng pangagailangan. hehe. Gustung-gusto ko ang pagkanta sa saliw ng gitara. Mapa-acoustic or rock pinapatulan ko. Pag nag-videoke kami ng mga barkada ko noon sa Pinas, ako lagi ang itinutulak ng mga barkada ko para maunang kumanta. Aba nang lumaon ay lahat na kami nag-aagawan na sa mikropono. Nakikipag-unahan na! Meron na kaming kanya-kanyang masterpiece.Hahaha. Naalala ko pa "You Were There" ng Southern Sons ang akin noon. Pag yun na ang tugtog, given na na ako ang kakanta. hehe..Hindi pa uso noon ang mediacom or HDT karaoke, VCD pa noon ang gamit at mga selections ang mga kanta. Tapos sa mga bahay bahay lang namin kami nagvi-videoke. Sa isang barangay lang kasi kami lahat nakatira.

Super naging makulay ang buhay ko nang mag-umpisa akong makipag-barkada. Dalawang grupo ang naging barkada ko sa aming barangay. Yung 1st group ay mga kababata at mga kapitbahay ko lahat. Simula grade 1 ay magkakaibigan na kami. Lima lang kami nung umpisa all girls, pangalan namin "Five Star Gang". Tapos nung mag-teenager kami ay nadagdagan kami. Naging kaibigan naman namin ang isang grupo na all boys naman. 11 kami lahat sa una kong grupo. Nakatira kami lahat sa Purok 1.

Then sa hindi inaasahang pagkakataon, naging barkada ko din ang aking 2nd barkada group ko na taga Purok 3 lahat. May okasyon nun bahay ng pinsan kong taga Purok 3, nagpunta ako at dahil wala namang barkada dun. Paupo-upo lang sa tabi tabi at inaantay ang nanay ko na matapos ang kwentuhan sa mga kamag-anak. Ipinakilala ako ng pinsan ko sa mga barkada niya. Super kwela at makwento ang grupo niya- 5 girls at 6 boys sila. Medyo mahiyain ako nun kasi nga nde ko naman teritoryo ang lugar nila. Pero naramdaman ko sa kanila na super welcome ako. That was also the first time na nakatikim ako ng alak- Gilbey's gin na merong lime juice. Hindi sila mga bad influence pero ang dami kong natikman na alak dahil sa kanila..hehe...Allowed naman kaming uminom, basta occassionally lang daw. College na kasi ako nito. We take it literally, weekly gumagawa kami ng okasyon. Meron pa kaming sariling tambayan talaga nun. Sa bahay ng pinsan ko (na sa kasalukuyan ay OFW din na kagaya ko, sa Abu Dhabi naman siya). Naging malapit din ako sa mga kamag-anak ko sa side ng mother dahil sa Purok 3 halos lahat sila nakatira.

Dahil sa 2 ang grupo ko, malaking problema pag me okasyon sa bahay namin. Hindi ako magkandaugaga kung saan ako lulugar sa dalawang grupo. Hindi kasi nila nakuhang magkasundo-sundo. Sa mga babae walang problema ang isa't isa. Pero sa mga barkada kong lalaki, maiinit ang dugo nila sa isa't isa. So parang ang set-up kung sinong maunang grupo sila ang pipili ng place sa bahay kung saan nila gusto. Ako yung napapagod talaga sa kanila. Five minutes ang stay dito tapos lipat sa kabila naman for five minutes. Kasi ayokong may magtampo. Kaya ingat na ingat din ako. Dapat pantay lang ang pag-eestima sa parehong grupo.

Hindi problema sa akin ang mga lakad namin kasi kadalasan ako ang taga-plano ng mga ito. Nakaka-guilty nga lang kung minsan kasi parang nakakalamang ako sa kanila- parang i'm getting the best of both worlds compare sa kanila. Pinilit ko talagang maging close sila sa isa't isa, pero talagang mahirap nilang tanggapin ang isa't isa. Minsan sinadya kong pagsamahin lahat sila, disaster ang nangyari. Hindi sila nagkibuan. Hindi ko na inulit. Pag pasko, dalawang magkaibang christmas party ang pinupuntahan ko.

Pero nakakatuwa nung bago ako mangibang-bansa, lahat sila nagsama-sama sa bahay namin na masaya. Nabigla nga ako at chika chika lahat. Nagbiro nga ako sa kanila. Kung kelan naman paalis na ako tsaka sila naging close sa isa't isa. Tawanan lang. Simbolo ng paglimot nila sa nagdaang di pagkakaintindihan. Alam kasi naming lahat ang mga kalokohang pinaggagawa at pinagsasabi nila laban sa isa't isa.

Fast Forward >>
May kanya kanya nang buhay lahat ng mga barkada kong nabanggit ngaun. Hindi na rin sila masyadong maka-barkada ngayon. Hindi na sila tumatambay. Seryoso na sila sa pagbuo ng kanilang sari-sariling pamilya. To the next level na kami ngayon, pare at mare na ang tawagan namin..hehe..

My Headcount (after I left Phils in 2005)

Unang Grupo

1) SC (girl)- married with 2 little cute babies. Phils

2) ES (girl)- married with one daughter; Phils

3) CP (girl)- married with a new baby daughter; Phils

4) CB (girl)- dating; busy with her life; UAE

5) JS (girl)- engaged; busy working; Phils

6) AM (boy)- newly-married; Phils

7) AP (boy)-married with 2 sons; Phils

8) RM (boy)- married; Phils

9) JM (boy)- single; KSA

10) TS (boy)- married with two sons; Phils

11) ako (girl)- single; busy blogging; Dubai. lol.

Ikalawang Grupo

1) CM (girl)- married with one cute son; Phils

2) JM (girl)- in a relationship; Phils

3) JA (girl)- in a relationship; Phils

4) MM (girl)- single; Phils

5) BC (girl)- married; Australia

6) RB (boy)- married with one son; Abu Dhabi

7) LM (boy)- married; Phils

8) MM (boy)- newly-married; Phils

9) DG (boy)- in a relationship; Phils.

10) AB (boy)- married; Phils.

11) SB (boy)- married with one son & one daughter; Phils

12) ako ulit (girl)- single; busy blogging pa rin. hehe.

Miss ko na ang tambay namin. Miss ko din ang kwentuhan hanggang magdamagan. Sobrang nami-miss ko din ngaun ang kantahan namin na talaga namang bumulabog sa mga kapitbahay namin. Napapakanta kasi ako ngaun. :-)

Can I Actually Blog Him?

This blogpost is an unsuccessful attempt to blog one friend/blogger. The author decided to remove its original content (only 3 paragraphs) for she doesn't think she can give justice to the story. Sometimes, there are things better left unsaid or unwritten.

When The Unexpected Happens

I was so excited to blog about my day today. But then for some reason, the network went down.
I got alarmed. I am on the peak of my blogging career, I can't miss a deadline.lol.

I decided to leave it for tomorrow and just call it a night. Besides, I feel like i am a certified 'addict' in blogging- i blog everyday until 1am min and 3am max. I wanted to moderate it and at the same time regulate it. I need to control myself.

And so I thought this is my chance to do that. I was supposed to turn off the laptop but then I tried again checking blogspot for the last time and voila! network is ok meaning i can still blog..hehe....(is this what we call obsessive compulsive disorder?)

It was all unexpected just like when a person falls in love. :-)

Being said that, I would like to share this poem/sonnet which I really find so romantic.

How Do I Love Thee?

By Elizabeth Robert Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.

I love thee to the depth and breadth and height

My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight

For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

I love thee to the level of everyday's

Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.

I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;

I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I love with the passion put to use

In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose

With my lost saints,--I love thee with the breath,

Smiles, tears, of all my life!--and if God choose,

I shall but love thee better after death.

Happy Unexpected Day to All!

Just So Lucky in "'Friends"

"Friendship happens when two hearts carry the same weight."
Anonymous

I admit I am not that friendly. One of the reasons why I still don't have blogmates. I don't know how to break an ice. I just don't know where to begin. Though I know very well how to continue after that. And I am careful that once I have it, it will never end but grows more.


But despite this, it is so amazing to know that I have a considerable good friends in my life. Some of them, I met here in Dubai. And one of them is PC. We are on the same company bus service. We work on the same building and same Group of Companies. My office is on the ground floor while hers on the 1st floor. I see her in the office only during lunch break in the company's canteen though we do not eat together as we have our own separate groups- my officemates and hers.


We have our quality time everyday for almost two hours inside the company's service bus while going home. (Quality time means our chikahan, updates, etc) Sometimes, we even extend this quality time. Out of the blue, we go to any mall near our residences- usually in Deira City Centre. I live in Deira while she lives in Bur Dubai so Deira City Centre is just a perfect place for us (this mall is situated exactly between these two places).



Just like today........

@ Deira City Centre Foodcourt

me in black and PC in white.

does it mean i am the evil? nope, we're both good.

sharing pizzas

PC is laughing at my craziness over taking pics while eating.

But she willingly oblige to it just the same (for the love of me) :-)

i'm actually eating here

PC still can't believe we're doing this photoshoot in foodcourt.

Using her laptop as our camera. :-)

I am so grateful to have such good friends here in Dubai. With them, I feel like i never left home. :-)

Note: To all my friends, I've warned you not to to ever look for me in the blogosphere you might be my next blog subject. :-)

Isang Gabing Dinalaw Ako

Mula elementarya hanggang kolehiyo ay swerteng napapabilang ako sa mga may matataas na marka.Nakakasama din ako sa mga nasasabitan ng ribbon at medalya. Lahi daw kami ng matatalino. Naks! (pasintabi po, dadalhin ko na ang sarili kong bangko..hehe). Actually, yung mga pinsan kong mas nauna sa akin ang matatalino. Sikat ang apelyido namin nun (mother's side), sa kadahilanang ang mga valedictorian sa lahat ng antas nang minsang school year sa nag-iisang pribadong iskul sa bayan namin ay lahat mga pinsan ko.
Hindi lang sila magaling sa academic. Nag-excel din sila sa mga extra-curricular activities: editor-in-chief ng school organ, pinuno sa ROTC, declamation & oratorical champion at madami pang iba.
Samantalang ako ay low profile talaga. Tahimik lang sa klase. Tamang aral lang kumbaga. Hindi mahilig sumali sa anumang non-academic organization. Naiisip ko nga kung mag-aaral ako ulit ngayon. Sigurado mangunguna ako sa klase! Hehe. Medyo madaldal na kasi ako ngayon. :-)
Wala po kaming gap ng mga pinsang kong nabanggit. In fact, lahat sila ay naging super close ko nung mga nagsipagtanda na kami. Sabi nga nila, 'birds of the same feathers, flocks together'. Wala lang gusto ko lang i-stressed na we're all the same..hehe (natatawa na lang ako sa mga pinagsusulat ko.)

Patalastas
ako: animus, saan ba patungo ang kwentong ito? Palalim na ang gabi at kailangan ng matulog at may pasok pa kinabukasan.
sagot ni animus: hindi ko din alam. naalala ko lang kasi nung nag-aaral pa ako ay gustong-gusto kong maging writer kahit man lang sa iskul namin ngunit hindi ako napagbigyan at sa iba ako napadpad. instead na letra ay mga numbers ang aking inatupag. aminado ako na hindi ako ipinanganak na manunulat pero naniniwala ako na sa pagsusumikap ay mahahasa ang aking talento sa pagsusulat.
ako: tama ang attitude na yan. darating din ang panahon na makakamit mo yan. ngayon pa nga lang ay may mga nagugustuhan na ako sa mga gawa mo.
sagot ni animus: napangiti mo naman ako sa sinabi mo. :-) cia, cge matulog na tayo. gudnyt!


Paalala:
si animus ay ang aking pangalan bilang manunulat. Ito ay isang salitang Latin na ang ibig sabihin ay courage.

Taking a Good Look of Dubai @ Night

The story begins........

@ Union Square

i am always reminded of 'Lovers in Paris' whenever I see a fountain.

I like the character of Vivian who always sees life in a positive way.

Did I make a wish? Yes, of course and it was wish granted. :-)

@ Naif Road

If i can walk, i walk. If i can run, i run.

This has long been my philosophy in life.

@ the other side of Naif Road

Where am I going? Then I heard a voice telling me,

Follow me. No question asked, I follow.

@ Creek Park

In Him, I will never walk alone.

@ Abra Station
Don't ignore those little signs in life.
They will lead you towards the direction of your dreams.

a Map @ Abra Station

I am here. You are there. Can we meet halfway? :-)

@ Burdubai Station

Someone told me, 'when life give you lemons,

make a lemonade.' lol. (sobrang serious ko kasi dito sa pic)

an open area @ Bur Dubai Station

Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed,

for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you;

I will uphold you with my righteous hand

Isaiah 41:10

a corner @ Bur Dubai Station

Mission Sunday 2009 Theme: To bring light to those in darkness.

The End.

Note: Special thanks to my friend SM for all these wonderful pics. I did not only take a good look of Dubai and life, I also got a chance to take some good look of my back as well. :-) . Again, maraming salamat sa suporta mo! (hehe..i'm imagining i am now a true blue writer/blogger).

An Open Letter

It's 12 midnight here. Everyone's asleep but me. Something's bugging me right now. I need to let it out but I can't seem to find the right words to say. I'm so lost. I don't know how will I exactly put the things in my mind into words.

I blog hopped awhile ago. As usual, I visited those blogs that I follow regularly. I had mentioned those blogs in my first ever public post. I really wanted to leave a comment on their blogs. I wanted to tell them how much they inspired me of their writings. I wanted to make an appreciation of their good works. But something is keeping me from doing it. I just don't have the guts to make that move.

I don't know when will I be ready to tell the world of blogosphere that I do exist. My blog is public for two weeks now but I'm still anonymous to everyone. I do visit other blogs but I make sure I do not leave visible traces of me. Will someone ever find me in that way? I know I'm asking for impossible.

May Minamahal

Nagkita-kita kami ng mga kaibigan ko last Eid, 3rd week of Sep 2009 (ofismeyts sa 2nd company ko sa Dubai). Madalang na lang kaming magsama-sama ngayon, kaya naman parang reunion ang nangyari. Sobrang saya dahil miss na miss namin ang isa't isa. Kami ang pinakamaingay sa kwentuhan at pinakamasaya sa restaurant na kinainan namin.

Update kami ng buhay-buhay namin. Update sa work. Syempre update sa ever favorite topic namin-lovelife. Buti na lang kaming anim na girls lang ang present nun. Girl talk ang nangyari. Mga no holds barred ika nga. (Meron pa kaming kaibigan na tatlong lalaki pero mga hindi nakarating dahil hindi namin talaga inaya.hehe)

Fact: Lahat silang 5 girls na naiwan dun sa company namin ay nagkaroon ng lovelife simula ng lumipat ako ng ibang company.

Fiction: Naisip ko kung isa kaya sa kanila ang umalis instead ako, e di sana meron na din akong lovelife.lol.

Masaya ako para sa kanila. Alam ko kasi napakasaya ng may minamahal at may nagmamahal sa iyo. Iba kasi ang dulot na kaligayahan nito maski pa maraming nagmamahal na kaibigan at kapamilya. Iba pag meron kang makakasama sa araw araw hanggang sa pang-habang buhay.

Lahat sila iisa ang sinasabi sa akin, panahon na daw para ma-experience ko din ito. Ngumiti lang ako sa kanila dahil alam kong hangad lang nila ang kaligayahan ko. Ako din naman ay naniniwala at umaasang balang araw ay ibibigay din ito sa akin. Hindi naman ako nagmamadali.

An excerpt from the song May Minamahal performed by Agot Isidro mula sa movie soundtrack ng pelikula nina Aga Muhlach & Aiko Melendez 1993 (original song of Rachel Alejandro):

May minamahal

Bawat taong may damdamin

May minamahal

Tulad mo at tulad ko

Nakadama sa isa't isa ng

pag-ibig

At ngayo'y nagmamahalan

ng tapat

'Pag nagmamahal

Bawat sandaling kasiping

ka'y anong bilis

Bawat oras ay mayro'ng

Kasaysayang anong sarap

Anong tamis

Maligaya nga ang taong

nagmamahal

The Art of Letting Go

Why is it so hard for me to let go?
When will I learn the art of doing one?
What will I do to make it easier?
Who will I call to make it bearable?

Why do I keep on holding on?
Why can't I just go and move on?
Why can't I come up to a clear decision?
Why am I even asking all these questions?

this is my mobile since 2005.
a priceless possesion.
he's already tired.
needed a well-deserved break.

But I can't seem to let him go like that.

Not just yet please.

Isang Simpleng Pangarap

Bukambibig ng mga kasama ko dito sa Dubai ang kani-kanilang farm sa Farmtown. Pag nasa company service kami, may maririnig ka na lang nagpapasalamat sa mga gifts na ipinadala sa kanya. Nagmamadali namang makauwi ang isa dahil kelangan na daw niya mag-harvest pag-uwi. Yung isa naman nagpapadalaw sa kanyang farm. Sabay pilit sa akin na mag farmtown na din daw kasi ako. Yung ka-ofismeyt ko na ibang lahi, na-shock ng malaman na wala pa din akong Facebook account hanggang ngayon. I'm not existing in this world daw! Pero napansin ko nga din, wala ng nag-memessage sa akin sa Friendster ngayon. Kung meron man, spam messages naman. Mukhang lumipat na lahat sila sa Facebook at nanirahan sa mga farm. lol.

Tawag naming mga hindi 'in' sa kanila ay mga farmer. Sa room na lang namin ay apat ang farmer dito. Sila ay hindi basta bastang farmer lang. Napaka-dedicated at sobrang sipag talaga. Biruin mong alas dose na ng gabi ay busy pa silang nagtatanim. hehe. Biruan nga namin kung mga kagaya nila lahat ng farmer sa Pinas, walang maghihirap at walang magugutom sa Pinas.

Actually, pangarap ko ang magkaroon ng isang maliit na farm malapit sa aming lugar. Pag nag-retiro ako ay doon na ako mamalagi (oopps, medyo malayo pa pala ito). Meantime, gagawin ko muna itong bahay bakasyunan na kung saan pwedi kaming mag-piknik or magpalipas ng oras. Sa gitna ng manggahan ay patatayuan ko ito ng isang maliit na kubo. Gusto ko kumpleto ang mga kagamitan sa bahay para pweding mag overnight. Meron mga iilang kambing at baka sa farm. Pero sa likod nito ay mayroon itong manukan na sapat para matustusan ang pang-araw na araw na gastusin namin.

Kasabay ng pagsikat ng Farmtown ay ang muling pagbalik ng aking pangarap. Pangarap na nais ko ding maisakatuparan. Kagaya ng mga 'farmer' na kakilala ko, ganun din ako ka-determinado para magkaroon ng sariling farm. :-)

Aaminin Ko Na

Naikwento ko na sa naunang blog ko na minsan sinumpong ako ng topak at hindi sumama sa overnight outing naming magkakaibigan. Matagal-tagal na kaming hindi nagkakasama ng mga kaibigan ko palibhasa may kanya kanya kaming pinagkakaabalahan. Napansin ito ng mga kaibigan ko at nag-plano sila ng overnight stay sa isang hotel sa Ajman. Excited ang lahat pero last minute nag-back out ako.

Nabigla lahat sa ginawa ko. Ako kasi ang numero unong pasimuno sa mga lakaran. Hindi sila sanay na tahimik ako sa kanila. Alam kong magtatampo sila sa akin sa hindi ko pagsama pero alam kong mauunawaan din nila ako.

Si ID. Tinawagan ako at nakikiusap sa akin na magbigay daw ako ng valid reason bakit hindi ako sasama para maintindihan niya ako. Hindi na daw niya alam ang nangyayari sa akin. Wala akong maibigay. Ang nasabi ko lang is hayaan na lang muna ako. Mag-enjoy na lang sila. Wala naman kaming problema. Hindi siya kontento sa sagot ko. Gusto niyang pag-usapan namin ito pero wala talagang lumalabas na salita mula sa akin. Sinabi ko na lang na kailangan ko ng ibaba ang phone dahil kasalukuyang nasa gitna ako ng daan. Bago kami magpaalam sa isa't isa ay nagpahabol ang kaibigan ko na kailangan naming i-resolve ito pag pwedi na ako. Wala siyang kaalam-alam na ako ay nangigilid na sa luha kaya hindi na ako makapagsalita.

Si RD (asawa ni ID). Sinabi lang sa akin na basta i-ready ko lang ang gamit ko tsaka na ako mag-decide kinabukasan kung sasama o hindi. Sa isip ko, alam kong buo na ang desisyon ko-hindi ako sasama.

Si JC ( magkasama kami sa haws). Kay JC ko sinabi na hindi ako makakasama sa outing namin. Wala akong binigay na dahilan. Sinabi ko ito a day before ng outing. Walang reaksyon si JC. Bago yun, meron ng katahimikan namamayani sa amin. Kung minsan, sinasadya kong late na umuwi para tulog na siya o kaya naman maaga akong matutulog pag ako naman ang nauna sa bahay.

May dahilan ako kung bakit ayaw kong sumama sa outing. Alam ko ding alam ng mga kaibigan ko ito. Hindi ko lang ito masabi sa kanila. Hindi ko lang ito maamin.

Magkakasama kaming apat sa isang bahay sa Sharjah noong bago pa lang kami sa UAE. Sabay si ID & JC na pumunta dito then after 2 months kinuha nila ako. Tapos sumunod naman si RD, nahuli siya kasi ayon sa aming survey, mas madali makahanap ng work dito ang mga kagaya naming taga-kwenta. Boom kasi talaga ang Dubai noon- taong 2005.

Then the following year 2006, nag-decide kaming sa Dubai na lang manirahan kasi lahat naman kami ay sa Dubai na nagtatrabaho. Dahil medyo may kamahalan ang renta ng Dubai kesa sa Sharjah, hindi na namin ma-afford na kumuha ng isang bahay para sa aming apat. Tumira kami ni JC sa bahay ni Tita F (ang tumulong sa amin sa pagpunta dito). Samantalang ang mag-asawang ID & RD ay nag-rent ng room malapit din sa aming tinitirhan.

Naging okay naman ang lahat sa amin. Mas naging close pa kami ni JC. Magkasama kami sa lahat ng bagay. Hindi kami mapaghiwalay. Sabay sa lahat ng lakaran, sabay nagjo-jogging, sabay magkwentuhan, sabay magtawanan, sabay mamasyal, sabay sa paglalaba, sabay sa pagluluto, sabay sa pag-iisip para kaming sina B1 at B2.

Early 2007 ay ipinakilala ni RD ang isang ofisymet kay JC, si G na boyfriend na ngayon ni JC. Hindi ko ito napaghandaan. Masaya ako para sa kaibigan ko na finally na-meet na niya ang kanyang The One. Pero hindi ko ito maipakita. Bagkus kabaligtaran pa ang nangyari . Umiwas ako sa kanya kasi nasasaktan ako. Feeling left out ako. Parang tingin ko kay G isa siyang kontrabida sa buhay ko. Civil naman ako pag nagkikita kami. Though me mga times parang hindi siya existing sa akin.

Napansin ito ni JC. Ilang beses na din naming napag-usapan ito. Ilang beses na din akong humingi ng sorry dahil sa cold treatment ko.Kaya lang ganun siguro pag nababalot ka ng pagseselos. Nakakagawa ka ng bagay na hindi mo gustong gawin. Nagagawa mong gawin pa rin ang mga bagay kahit alam mong makakasakit ang mga ito.

At yung hindi ko pagsama sa outing namin ay ang aking deklarasyon na meron nga akong problema. Nalaman ko kasing kasama din namin si G sa outing. Alam kong hindi ko mapipigilan ang sarili kong magselos at bigla na lang mawala sa mood pag nakikita ko sila kaya nag-decide na ako na huwag na lang sumama. Nagpapasalamat ako at nirespeto ng mga kaibigan ang desisyon ko. Naintindihan nila ako.

Pero after ng aking ginawa, na-realize ko na napaka-immature at insensitive ko sa feelings ng mga kaibigan ko. Naging selfish ako. Pinagsisihan ko ang aking nagawa. Ipinangako kong babawi ako sa mga kaibigan ko. With all sincerity, humingi ako ng sorry ulit kay JC at sinabing yun na ang huli.

Alam ko namang mahal ako ng mga kaibigan ko kaya wala akong dapat ipagselos. Never naman nila akong iniwan at alam kong hindi nila ako iiwan kailanman. May nag-advice sa akin na ilugar ko daw ang sarili ko sa kaibigan ko. Naisip ko tuloy, kung ako ang may kaibigan na kagaya ko. Malamang hindi ko ito matitiis at hahayaan lang itong malunod sa pag-iisa. Pero hindi ito ginawa ng mga kaibigan ko.

Nasa work in progress stage na ako ngayon. Binabati ko na din sa wakas si G pag nagpupunta sa bahay. Hindi ko na sila iniiwasan ngayon. Mas malinaw na ang isipan ko ngayon. Dahil ang totoo kung anuman ang makakapagpasaya sa kaibigan ko ay doon din ako.

A Visit

There is always a feeling of guilt inside me whenever I fail to attend the weekly mass for whatever reasons. My weekly visit to church is like a weekly renewal of vow to Him. There in silence, I profess my love to Him. I thank Him for all the blessings in my life. I repent and ask forgiveness for the sins I committed. I make a promise that He will always be my first priority in my life. I submit myself to Him.

I used to tell everyone (with so much conviction) that I am very close to Him. That I am His favorite for He is giving me whatever I need and whatever I ask. Then one day, it changed. My faith was tested. I'd drifted away from Him. I intentionally ignored Him. He is always calling me but I did not answer. I busied myself to everything but Him, then before I knew it, He became stranger to me.

But reality bites, I can't live without Him. He's my everything. So I made a conscious effort to please Him and to bring back our closeness once more. At first, I felt akward and hesitant for I knew I'd hurt Him for doubting Him. I'm afraid He won't accept me anymore. Then someone told me, I need not afraid for we have a forgiving and compassionate God. True enough, He forgives me even before I ask for it.

Now, our relationship is better than ever. We have a constant communication. I'm confident to say, we are not only closer but we are also more open with each other.

Word of Honor

Naaasar ako sa mga taong hindi marunong tumupad sa kanilang mga salita. Malaki man ito o maliit na bagay lang. Ako kasi ang tipo ng taong sinusunod talaga ang mga bagay na ipinapangako. Kaya kung minsan i end up being frustrated pag nakatagpo ako ng mga taong hindi kayang tuparin ang mga sinasabi.
Madami-dami na din akong nakatagpo na kagaya nila. Hindi ko sila maintindihan. Ganun ba kahirap ang tumupad ng mga pangako? Why promise kung hindi mo naman ito kayang tuparin? Kung minsan, mga kaibigan ko pa ang mga ito. Dahil sa mas importante naman sa akin ang pagkakaibigan kaysa sa mga salitang hindi tinupad kadalasan pinapalampas ko lang ito at hinahayaan ko lang humupa ang aking pagka-asar. Then okay na ulit. Ngunit kung minsan merong kung anumang nababawas, yung bang parang nawawalan ako ng gana.
Sabi ko nga pag may ipinangako ako, gagawin ko talaga lahat para matupad ito. Pero this is only applicable pag pangako sa ibang tao. Kapag sa sarili na ako nangako, ang dali ko nang ipako. Sana magawa kong tuparin din ang mga pangako ko sa sarili ko.
Mid of this year, meron akong ginawang mga little promises/challenges to myself (mga never been done before) na kelangan kong gawin before the year ends. Noong una determinado talaga akong tuparin lahat ito ngunit ngayon i'm losing hope. Iniisip ko na i-scrap na ang mga ito bago pa dumating ang deadline. hehe.
1) read a good book in a coffee shop alone (suggested ito ng aking kaibigang si MC)
2) watch a movie in the big screen alone! (attempted thrice, lahat nde natuloy dahil sa takot,ayoko ng movie at kung anu-ano pang dahilan...pero ito kayang-kaya kong tuparin malayo pa naman end of the year)
3) hindi ako magiging KJ, i will say yes sa lahat ng mga mag-aaya sa akin ng lakad kung wala naman akong schedule na lakad sa iba ( i already broke this, nde ako sumama sa out of town/overnight na lakad namin ng mga kaibigan ko. worse yet, nag-yes ako nung una then nag back-out ako dahil sinumpong ako ng topak. pinagsisihan ko na ito. nag-promise ulit ako. this time ang promise ko ay never ko nang gagawin ang ginawa ko sa mga kaibigan ko. i will be more sensitive sa feelings nila & make sure na kontrolado ko ang topak ko..hehe)
4) makikipag-date ako (kadamay ko ang ofismeyt ko dito, we made a pact na dapat kahit isang date man lang ay kailangan magkarun kami this year by hook or by crook. lagi kasi kaming inaasar sa ofis na papunta na kami sa pagiging matandang dalaga. at first, i thought ang dali-dali lang gawin nito. date lang naman sabi ko. being very vocal about it sa mga kasama ko, aba would u believe tatlo agad nag-text sa akin!!?!! pinamigay pala ng mga kasama ko ang number ko..wala akong nireplayan. parang feeling ko, i'm for sale..hehe....anyway, binawi ko na ito. ayoko na. na-pressure ako. biruin mong nag-isip talaga ako how to get a date before the year ends? :-) )

Kaya dapat maintindihan ko ang mga taong hindi kayang tuparin ang kanilang mga pangako dahil sa simpleng dahilan na isa din akong kagaya nila. :-)