A Visit

There is always a feeling of guilt inside me whenever I fail to attend the weekly mass for whatever reasons. My weekly visit to church is like a weekly renewal of vow to Him. There in silence, I profess my love to Him. I thank Him for all the blessings in my life. I repent and ask forgiveness for the sins I committed. I make a promise that He will always be my first priority in my life. I submit myself to Him.

I used to tell everyone (with so much conviction) that I am very close to Him. That I am His favorite for He is giving me whatever I need and whatever I ask. Then one day, it changed. My faith was tested. I'd drifted away from Him. I intentionally ignored Him. He is always calling me but I did not answer. I busied myself to everything but Him, then before I knew it, He became stranger to me.

But reality bites, I can't live without Him. He's my everything. So I made a conscious effort to please Him and to bring back our closeness once more. At first, I felt akward and hesitant for I knew I'd hurt Him for doubting Him. I'm afraid He won't accept me anymore. Then someone told me, I need not afraid for we have a forgiving and compassionate God. True enough, He forgives me even before I ask for it.

Now, our relationship is better than ever. We have a constant communication. I'm confident to say, we are not only closer but we are also more open with each other.