This is a story (again) about my 2nd company here in Dubai- the final installment. The memories I had there are just too compelling for me. I found lots of friends there, the JAMDABARKADS. I was so inspired working because of gie, who happened to be our manager, my super crush then. And did i mention working in this company was also my dream job? Yes, it had been. I was very vocal in telling my friends that it was my perfect job. I was in control of everything. I loved the deadlines, month-end closings, account reconciliations, overtime, etc. I also loved those multi-tasking activities when i was not busy (emailing/chikahan over the phone while working). I basically loved every minute and every second of my work life there.
So, why did i leave the company? The same question was asked to me when i was interviewed by my current company. I remember I answered career move and financial reason. But these are only partly true. I really loved my work so much. I had given too much of myself to it that I'd expected too much from it. So when that one fateful day happened, my (work) life had never been the same. It had hit me big time. My heart knew it 'nawalan ako ng gana'. But I continued to work as if nothing had changed. I even put extra effort than the usual. It is not really in my vocabulary to sacrifice the quality of my work over my personal 'grudge'/feeling. I admitted my mistakes. But I felt trapped and my only way out is to leave the company even if it hurts.
It was a known fact that our company doesn't issue an NOC therefore, it is impossible/difficult for me to transfer to another company. I'd started to accept my fate & dismiss the thought of leaving the company. In fact, i formally asked my manager to just transfer me to another department. I reached to a point of working myself to death but unhappy. I'd started being 'super' workaholic that I hated it because I just can't stop. I became irritable. Before, I just laugh it off when a teammate would tell me he's just playing (i.e. typing really fast for a show) while i'm busy finalizing our team reports. But i had changed. There was a time, i suggested to my in-charge if i can swap responsibilities to a teammate. Of course, he did not agree. I can't believe he would tell me that my teammate couldn't handle my assigned tasks. That's also the reason why they did not grant my request to be transferred to another department. To my in-charge, i was indispensable to his department.
I tried to forget my frustrations over work. I was successful on this. I focused myself in my upcoming vacation to Phils which was scheduled the whole month of May 2007. I and my friends even planned to take a side trip to Singapore together. However, it was also during this time that i got a job offer from my current company who also can issue me a visa without an NOC. So I grabbed the opportunity.
A colleague kept on reminding me about my cheque in the cashier (advance salary is being given when going vacation). I was torn between proceeding my vacation and having a proper turnover. I decided to cancel my vacation to have a proper turnover. I owe it to my company/my in-charge, they'd/he'd been so good to me.
Two days after i cancelled my vacation, i'd passed my resignation letter to my in-charge. He did not expect it to come too soon for we really had a good working relationship with each other, enough for me to stay. (i and my in-charge had an 'inside joke'. one time before leaving the office, i told him 'sir, i will be sick tomorrow therefore, will not be here'. after that incident, he'd always asked me 'how's my health? and we would just end up laughing.) He advised me to think about it more closely. That he won't forward my resignation to our manager, he'll give me time to really weigh things. I told him i am decided already. It's not an easy decision for me, I'll definitely miss everything in the office, my collegues, my cubicle, my computer, and of course my in-charge. I promised him i'll update everything and i'll make sure proper turnover would take place.
After few hours, our manager (gie) asked me to go to his office. He's encouraging me to stay in the company- he told me i'll be transferred to another dept (suddenly he remembered my long overdue request); he promised promotion, salary increase etc; he also cited some negative possibilities that i might encounter in the new company like do i know if the new company's stable and more. 'Do not decide today', he told me. Let me know your decision tomorrow. I just kept silent. But to me, my decision is very clear and final.
I served my almost one-month notice with so much energy. I was back to my old self. I want to savour every minute of my time left in the company.
On my last working day, as I bid farewell to my colleagues i can't help but find myself shedding tears. I will really miss all of them.
Present: Once in a while, i still visit this company. I always feel the 'seems it was like yesterday' feeling. I feel very welcome. I'm actually 'at home na at home'. :-)
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