Serious Talks

23 May 2010 Sunday 6pm
@ the office

I got alarmed when I received this (emergency) call from a friend. She told me she needs someone to talk to, first time i heard this from her. She sounded very desperate and hopeless. I really have no idea what's worrying her. I wanted to be of help so I decided to cancel my planned activity for the night and meet her instead.

8:30pm-12:30am

We met up at a nearest mall and had dinner. After our 'komustahan' portion (it's been a long time since we last saw each other), she became so serious and started crying over a lot of things that are really bothering her.


Our Conversations

her: tin, do you believe in God?
me: of course, I do. And I believe He's a loving and very compassionate God.
her: i'm losing my faith in Him. He's not listening to my prayers (citing all her unanswered prayers). i'm trying my level best to be good & correct mistakes i've done in the past but why He's giving me all these trials? sometimes, i want to try the other side. hoping it will be different. these problems are too much for me.
me: There are no unanswered prayers. Sometimes His answer is No or No, not this time. Believe me He perfectly knows the right timing. He has a reason for everything. Don't blame Him for our misfortunes in life. He gave us wisdom and free will. Let us be responsible in using these gifts. God loves you don't ever forget that. Whatever problems you have, it shall pass too. Just keep the faith.
her: i've been so patient in waiting for His response, but today is very different. i was happy for i saw some developments on my request like 'i think this is the long-awaited answer' but only to find out, He's still not giving it to me. I've done everything.
me: then, let Thy will be done. There is this book Eat, Pray & Love which I just started reading two days ago. The start of the story is a woman is crying at 3am in their bathroom over unhappiness in her marriage and life altogether. She married her chilhood sweetheart but now she wants out of this marriage. She realized she's not ready to bear a child. She doesn't know what to do. But something unexplainable happened that night, for the very first time she talks directly to God. She asked for help. They had a one-on-one conversation. And did you know what God tells her after? Now, go back to sleep. Because God gives possible answer. At 3am, there's nothing she can do.

I advised my friend to get a support from her family and friends. When you know you have 'kakampi', somehow it gives you strength & sustain you. And our biggest/strongest kakampi is God.

We talked lots of things. She cried her heart to me. I consoled her. I tried to make her smile while crying. I told her all the parables and encouraging stories that i know. I wish I could help in solving her problems directly. But these are the only ways I think I could do. I am sincerely praying for God's intervention.


I easily get depressed when i have problems before. I excessively sleep, i cannot talk and i don't want to go out-these are the signs (i've changed, nde ko na ginagawa ito ngayon). Nagtatampo din ako sa Kanya. Pero pag nahimasmasan na ako, sigurado babalik din ako sa Kanya. I know kasi I will be lost pag hindi ko siya kasama, kaya naman talagang dumidikit ako sa Kanya.