Broken Promises

I hate it when someone breaks a promise, it's really a big deal to me. I have written this sentiment in my October post - Word of Honor. I'm trying to understand and accept that not everyone can live with their promises and I'm not excluded.



For an exercise, i made four (4) easy/possible-to-do promises to myself that I need to fulfill before the year 2009 ends. Unfortunately & never intentionally, i broke all these promises! And i'm not happy with it. :-( Here's a recap:


1) read a good book in a coffee shop alone!
2) watch movie alone!
- i was all set and ready to do these tasks after Christmas. i had a good book with me 'Handle With Care' by Jodi Picoult (which JC had gifted me on Christmas). the mall is just near our residence. there's a lot of coffee shops plus cinemas inside! my plans were to see the movie 'Avatar', go to 'Starbucks' after, order 1 Mocha Frappucino and 1 slice of cheese cake, read my book, go home and be proud of myself for a job well done. however, for so many reasons which are unacceptable of course (for i do believe if there's a will, there's a way), i did not materialize these plans.
3) not to be a KJ, say yes to all my friends' invitations to go out if there's no conflict with my schedules- i had managed to keep whatever promises i made with my friends except for that one fateful day.
4) go on a 'romantic' date- this promise became sensational issue with my busmates/officemates/friends. haha. they're really made an effort to help me fulfill this. to make sure i am seriously into it, we made an agreement that if ever i did not have one i will all treat them in "KFC'! We all went to KFC last Dec 30, 2009 for two celebrations: one is celebration of my being single and the other one is celebration of being 'double' of PC. ( they remembered i had completed the 'Simbang Gabi' so they're wondering what had happened and said, maybe parating na daw na-delay lang ng unti. hehe. they didn't know it's not even part of my wishlist, just not yet i wish. my mom will not be happy to know these- that i'm really not interested looking, that i'm considering to be single forever, that i am starting to forget my dream of having a family of my own, that i am okay and happy with all these thoughts. that i plan to tell her seriously about it come my 30th birthday on 2011. I do want to give her 'grandchildren' c/o me and fulfill her wish to see me happily married but it's not in my hands. I hope she can wholeheartedly accept it if this is my fate and destiny.)



I was very confident that I can atleast performed 50% of these promises (2 out of 4). But all I'm taking with me now are broken promises. I should really take my word seriously next time.